He Makes Me Happy

Kenny makes me happy.

I've had other boyfriends and other flings and such. They've all made me happy while I was with them--mostly, anyway.

Peter was alright for the one week that we dated. I only liked the idea of him, not him.

I dated Patrick like...four times. The first time shouldn't count since it was only like, a day. The second time, I was on cloud nine. I was super happy and such. The third and fourth times were alright, nothing to really brag about.

David was a great boyfriend. He really was. But I was still stuck on Patrick when I dated him. I could've been happier, but it wasn't meant to be.

Trying to start a summer fling with Boy #1 failed. We hooked up once and didn't do much after. We just kinda...stopped...texting...

Boy #2 kept it casual, thank gods. But his personality started to bother me, and I cut things off. Lately he drops little sexual comments every once in a while, and it gets on my nerves sooo bad.

Boy #3 fell under the Peter case. I just liked the idea of him. His personality kinda sucked ass. And he just wanted some, not a relationship. After things with him stopped, I realized how unattracted I was to him.

Boy #4 was a complete asshole. He told me how he would never cheat on anyone, yet he was cheating on his girlfriend with me. And I never knew.

Then came Kenny. Honestly, I was on the verge of deciding to get over him and let him be, but Dinh saved me. I am so so so happy! Happier than when I dated Patrick. And I was pretty happy back then. I'm as happy as that but 3x more. Every bad thing seems less shitty because I have Kenny.

I hate how I can't see him all the time and just be with him. Just being with him makes me happy. I don't understand why everyone is so against it! I won't turn into one of those girls whose entire life revolves around her boyfriend, but I do love being with him.

He's just...so amazing. It's hard to explain! I just wish that I could be with him more often. I hope I can go to UTK so I can spend as much time as I want with him.

He's my Blanco, and I'm his Chava.

Bad Guys No More

Things finally ended with Boy. We finally stopped *talking*. I told one of my far away confidents all about it. Then one random Sunday morning, I find out that he told Girl everything that Boy and I did. After a bunch of texting and such, I told Boy that he tells her the truth or I will.

Long story short, I found out that he and his ex, Girl, got back together at the beginning of October when Boy and I just started hooking up. From a reliable source, I found out that he hooked up with other girls as well. I have refused to talk to him, and he hasn't approached me. I have been deleted from his Facebook friends. I've gotten over him pretty quickly.

On another note, I'm not single anymore! :] His name is Kenny, and I have his orange hoodie.

Speaking of orange hoodies, I got accepted into UTK!!! My acceptance letter came in the mail yesterday. I am sososo happy! I've been wanting to go there for the past maybe two years. Hopefully I can come up with the moolah to live my college dream life at the University of Tennessee Knoxville.

That's all for now. Thanks for reading!

Mina <3

Negatives of PMS

There is so much bad shit that comes with being on your period. You get cramps, look bloated, have to spend moolah on pads and/or tampons, and you can't masturbate and/ore have sex. One of the shittiest things, for me, anyway, is that you can't sleep naked.

Well, I mean, you could go nude with a tampon stuck up your vagina or don't wear anything at all. Yeah, there'd be a huge, bloody mess that looks like someone murdered you through your vagina, but at least you're comfortable clothes-wise.

Some claim that sleeping naked is uncomfortable, gives breaking-in rapists easier access to your goods [like not having a protection seal on mouthwash], and makes you look sluttier when you bring up your nude sleeping habits during casual conversation. Sleeping naked, for females, can be good for you.

Bras conflict with circulation. Bras keep things up, right? They can't leave your boobs sagging. So they fit snuggly around you. Sometimes too snuggly. I read somewhere awhile back that you shouldn't sleep with a bra on.

Sleeping with panties on is a more difficult matter. If you've got regular cotton underwear--granny or bikini or something similar--then you're good today. If you've got a thong, g-string, or boyshorts, go commando. They're not good for your vaginalness.

Clothes, for me, frustrate me. I twist and turn trying to sleep and in the act of sleeping. It peeves me when my pants roll up to my thighs or anything like that. With my shirts, they have to hug me or else they'll ride up or twist weird or something equally shitty. Even then, with tight clothes, there's that problem. They're tight.

So that's basically why I go all natural to sleep. Except for when I'm on my period.

It's Over?

Sometimes the cheesecake just isn't worth its price.

So this is probably the fourteenth time that I've told myself that I'm going to end it. And I think this time it might just be it.

We haven't been talking as much. Not all that much texting or talking or...anything, really. The last time he really contacted me was after he saw me in my Halloween costume. (See right.) So you can see what really matters, right?

I had an amazing little talk with a random guy that's in my class. He brought to my attention that guys like attention just as much as girls. So when two girls like him, it's great. Just like how I like all the attention from boys as well. Makes sense. See?

He hung out with his friend and his ex. Honestly, he might as well go ahead and commit to a relationship with her if he wants. I don't want to have to compete for him. I don't want to hang out with him if he's into another girl.

At first I understood it being casual and all, but thinking about it after picturing all the times I see him with her, I just get so turned off. Y'know?

So maybe this time it'll be over. We've slowly stopped talking, and he only wants to "hang out" because of me + halloween costume. Yeah. A keeper, yes? Sarcasm.

~*~

On another note, I was serenaded last week. By Matt. It was so funny and cute! I laughed so hard. He sang me "Fireflies" by Owl City. There's a whole story behind it, so it's adorable. Then he wrote on my Facebook wall that I was as pretty as ten thousand fireflies. :]

I'm going to see my school's version of Beauty and the Beast on Friday. I'm excited. :]

xoxo,

Mina

Too Late?

What. The. Fuck.

It's like, when I give in, the offer's closed; and when I pull back, the offer's good.

I admit going after a guy who just wants some is a stupid idea, but I'm lonely. I just want someone to cuddle with but not have to stay committed to. I just want him without the him.

D:

I'm having a mini The Office marathon, and I'm currently on season 4. Woot! It's such an amazing television series. It's kinda sad because I already know how they all end up...but it's exciting to see how they all got there.

On another note, I've painted my fingernails black.

I haven't painted my nails black in a while because so many people were doing it, but I finally gave in. I love my black nails. I already feel less depressed haha.

Now, back to The Office...